Mama’s 7 Reminders + Daily Affirmations

My boy graduated from Kindergarten this week.
I don’t even know how this happened. How did we even get this far? Wow, does time fly.

As I sit here watching him play and eat animal crackers while I suck down an afternoon pick-me-up, a lot of thoughts (as usual) are going through my head. Did I guide him enough this year? Did he understand enough, did he understand and learn from ME enough? How much did he actually learn? Did he enjoy himself and have enough fun through the year? Did I just DO enough as his mama? What can I do more to help him succeed the way that works best for him? This year came and went so fast and through all of the emotion and chaos, I’d have to say it was quite bittersweet to soak it all in and watch him grow through his first official year of school. Now that he’s off to 1st grade, it’s like ‘official big boy status.’ But that doesn’t mean that my mama mind isn’t feeling just as crazy as ever.

I gathered some reminders for you mamas out there, for those times when you are feeling like you are not giving enough, wondering if you’ll make it through or why you can’t simply just do it all. Because on a serious note, this worry is going through our minds at some point every single day. It wears on us. It breaks us down. It runs us, literally.

So, just know that as much as you are trying, you ARE enough. And you may not feel it, you may actually feel drained. But believe me, to the people that are in your home, those who see you daily, who know who you are and know what you give to them, you are.

Please read these aloud to yourself. Every day.
Stick them around your home on post it notes if you need to. But keep your head up, your mind fresh and your heart full.
You were made for this life.

 

 

 

ALL I NEED IS WITHIN ME.

Take a deep breath. You are not the only one who is feeling this way and please just focus on knowing that you are completely capable and truly do have the ability to make your life your happy place. Choose positivity, choose acceptance of who you are, where you are, and choose to listen to your heart. Your heart will always win. Every single thing that you need to be successful or to get you through something in your life, you already have inside yourself. Think about it, no one can fix yourself better than you. You were created to be able to do this yourself and no one will be better at doing this than you.

You. Got. This.
And it will be hard, no one ever said motherhood was easy. But every day, you can do this.

 

I AM STRONGER THAN I SEEM + I AM BRAVER THAN I THINK.

Do you know how strong and brave you are as a mom?
I mean, you made it through childbirth didn’t you? That’s a superhero power within itself!
Your mind will talk you into things, make you feel questionable at times or maybe even shoot some negative obstacles your direction. But it shouldn’t allow you to get too far off track or lose focus, unless you allow it to. It may take you to a place where you are confused and don’t know where you are, who you are or make you question what direction you need to go next. This is normal and part of life, and it will happen more times than I can count for you. Your inner self may feel and look different than your outer skin that everyone else sees, and this is okay. However, to get through each chapter of doubt, struggle and frustration, please refer back to the last reminder. You know what you want, you know what you want to do. You got this. Stay strong, get through one day (or even hour) at a time and simply just keep believing in yourself. Your kids do. You, as a mother, and as a woman, have more power and control than you even know.

 

MIRACLES ARE TAKING PLACE.

It’s hard sometimes to believe things will be great or stay great more consistently, I totally get it. And while everyone’s journey is different, it’s important to know that it just may ‘not be that time yet.’ Keep doing what you’re doing and you’ll get where you’re supposed to be. The perspective of things may come in a different way or form, but things will happen. You have to let things form naturally or it will never work out. And without these hard times in between, you will never be able to gain the extra knowledge, patience or strength to help you through when you may need it in the future. Things happen for a reason, after all. “Be still and know,” okay? You are okay. You will be okay.

 

I AM DONE COMPLAINING.

Don’t dwell on the way you look, stop trying to be in control of things you cannot control and stop being upset with yourself (or others) because you are not getting enough done in one day. Your children don’t see your body, your hair, how frumpy you actually look or how tired you feel. All they can see is how giving your soul is and how nurturing you are to them. They think you are the most beautiful person in this world because they don’t even know what it’s like to ‘feel frumpy,’ and their version of feeling ‘tired’ is not on the same level as ours. They are taught this as they get older and when they get to that point, they will understand. But the way you make them feel and the way they feel about you is the most genuine connection there is before life takes over. There are only so many hours in a single day and everything will not get done. Try your best to shorten your temper or negative thoughts when it comes to this. This also goes for moments of outbursts, such as snapping at your spouse for not taking the garbage out. It’s not the end of the world. It’s a garbage bag. This should not run your life or ruin your day. If you’re yelling at each other for these kinds of things, there is something bigger happening that is bothering you more, not that garbage bag or the fact that ‘they forgot to carry it outside.’ (I will be doing a post on this later but for now, take a breath and maybe take the garbage out yourself. That walk to and from the curb could give you the extra refreshed mindset that you need for a bit.)

Just relax and get through one day at a time, girlfriend. Tomorrow is a new day and the extra ‘stuff’ will still be there to try again. Whatever it is you put your mind to is where your soul is going to bloom, it’s where the passion is poured out and it’s where you find your ‘happy place.’ Find it and stay there. Turn your mindset on the things that matter and your mind and your heart will be so much happier.

 

I AM GRATEFUL.

What are three things that you are grateful for at this very second? Okay, four if you are like me and you’re including that cup of coffee that is helping you get through the day, ha. Even is there is negativity going on in your life or on your mind somehow, and you’re still working on keeping your chin up, there is still something to feel grateful for. Did your babe hug you today? Did they need your help today? Do you have a roof over your head or a good friend who just listens? Is the sun shining through your windows or do you have some pretty fresh flowers to look at on your counter? Smile. You should still feel so grateful.

 

I APPRECIATE MY LIFE.

Your life has value and you, my friend, are so valuable. You’ve worked hard to be where you are, others look up to you, they appreciate and need you. So simply, just appreciate where you are, what you’ve been given and accept all of the love that IS there. Life is a precious thing.

 

And the last one,

CHANGE IS MANDATORY.

Look at how far you’ve come. Look where you are at now, it may not be in the same house and some of the same people may no longer be in your life, but it’s a new chapter. It’s part of the journey and look how strong you’ve become. Those old memories in photographs or in the back of your mind are just a part of your story together and have made you who you are today. Don’t stress and don’t compare yourself to the way you used to look, what you did back then compared to now or even the things you had. Just look at is as change, a transformation. Change is a good thing, change is needed, and change is beautiful. Life itself, is all about the change and growth. You’re still growing, mama. You’re still learning and gaining strength and hope and confidence. But you know what? You always will.

It takes time to grow, and you are blooming just the way you were meant to. Do your thang.
And be nice to yourself. The very fact that you worry about being ‘a good mom’ means that you already are one.

 

Go and hug your babies!


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Make Time To Stop + Smell The Roses

Or lilacs in this case…
But seriously, whatever it is that makes you happy for a few moments, just do it.

Life is busy, it’s hard. There is a lot on your mind. Refresh. Smile again + just keep going.
This is just a simple, happy post to remember our quiet time spent in the yard cutting lilacs with the sun shining through the branches + the newly crisp Spring breeze blowing. And because our girl is so pretty + blooming just like those lilacs, it was so sweet to sit back, relax + watch her happiness + joy glow by doing something so simple to help the day pass. Children are just the best reminder in general, to enjoy the little things more. If they can, we can too.

The smell that now fills our home in vases + on other days when the window is open next to this spot, is just a reminder to stop + smell. Take a breath. And then keep going.

If you’re really struggling, make a list of three things that has brought you joy that day. The taste of your coffee, a hug from your daughter, a message from a friend. There is always something in your day that will bring some kind of joy to your heart. Please hold onto that.

Happy Monday, friends.
I hope this will bring a little happiness into your heart, if you need it.
xx








“Everything Comes Full Circle”

^^ I read that quote the same day I came home from this session. Coincidence? I think not.

This past week has been so entirely bittersweet for me in so many ways. But to top it off, I was overwhelmed with so many emotions when I had the honor of walking through the front door to capture a newborn session for the family who moved into my childhood home. I can’t even explain to you my feelings, so I’ll just continue to wipe the tears off my cheeks as I write this blog post. I’m also a bit of a sap and a huge sentimental person, so this probably trumps a lot of moments so far in my life. I’m so grateful that Jenni + Luke have allowed me to experience not only these perfect first memories of bringing home their new baby, but for allowing me to walk through the place, where I still in my heart, call ‘home.’

Right in this very spot, in my old bedroom, I hold new Miss Josslyn, who will now also have so many fun memories right here with her friends, her pets, someday maybe other siblings, just finding herself in life and making her own memories just as I did. Those walls are covered with layers of different paint colors and patterns that I transformed to my liking at different points in my life. That walk-in closet behind us transformed from toy bins to a chalkboard for school play, then to a karaoke space filled with teenage clothes spread everywhere.

It’s the place where I found so much of myself and experienced all my years of ‘growing up.’ Walking through the front door, it still felt the same. It was so nice to just FEEL what my heart has always known, where my journey started and to see how much my life has grown since then. It’s where I found my truest passion in life, where I got my first camera and had the first thoughts and dreams of being where I am now. It’s where we got our first family pup and the place she left us too soon for Heaven. We laid that brick patio in the back and I pictured my mama doing yard work in the nice weather out those windows as the birds chirped and the wind blew during our session. My mom had done daycare in our home since I was young, and even before. So many other children’s laughter and smiles came in and out that front door every day making more memories as well.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

So many friends, including Josslyn’s mama, remembers taking pictures before dances at our house in Jr. High and High School. The rooms filled with friends during sleepovers and birthday parties. My parents loved hosting, so we had many get togethers and celebrations. It’s the house my babe points to out the car window or sees in a photo and knows that used to be ‘Nana’s house.’ He took his first steps there, right inside the front door. It’s where my first car was parked in the driveway after I got my license. You get it. It’s all just a memory now, but it’s the biggest part of my life and it’s something that will always just stay with me.

You leave home, you move on and you do the best you can.
I got lost in this old world and forgot who I am
If I could just come in I swear I’ll leave.
Won’t take nothing but a memory
From the house that built me.

At the end of each day and with many heartfelt wishes, I hope that this will always be your happy place to come home to, sweet girl.
It sure was mine.

 

Finish the Race + Find Your Happy.

We need to STOP.

Stop the first impression judgement, the judgement in general. The constant worrying about others, like what they think about you, the things you enjoy but ‘shouldn’t’ be doing, or what you are doing right or wrong. Don’t worry about what others are doing or saying or buying and please stop comparing yourself to them. You can’t sit back and judge or compare someone else’s story to yours. You just can’t. You’re not living the same life as them and you’re not going down the same paths as they are. Just because they have nice things doesn’t mean you know their past or what they’ve been through. Just because they have a smile on their face all the time doesn’t mean they are or have the happiest kind of life that you imagine it to be. They may be hurting, deeply struggling with something or they may have moved their biggest mountains to finally be able to enjoy the happiness they have now. The more you stop comparing yourself to others, the more time you will have to better your own life. Stop pinning and wishing and wanting and start doing. Stop wasting time dwelling on other people’s life and take that time to improve your own. Keep yourself busy, find a new hobby, make it a point to want to make other people happy instead of just yourself. When you give something your focus, it consumes you and it becomes something stronger and brighter. Fitness, your small business, your home, your relationships. Think about it. Dive into that and watch it grow.

You need to pull yourself away from the things and the people that don’t push you forward. Yes, unfortunately, this even includes family. The ones who don’t believe in you or see the good that you have to give or what you have to offer, they don’t deserve you. You need to remove the negativity from your life. All of it. Stop taking on loads and extra weight of worry that isn’t even yours.

Seriously, though.
How much of the worry that you’re carrying right now isn’t even yours to worry about?

There will always be people around you questioning ‘why can’t you just get over it’ or saying ‘just push through it,’ even when you feel like you aren’t able. And that’s okay, to a certain degree even though they may not really understand. But those negative people who don’t believe in you, those who bring you down, belittle you to the point where you don’t even feel like yourself or allow you to lose your confidence, or those who are pulling you back every time you want to take a leap forward, please don’t allow them to do so. You deserve to be everything you’re capable of without anyone tearing you down or holding you back from your dreams or goals. It’s okay to be scared. And I promise the people who you need most in your life will stay in it or show up at just the right time. Don’t hold onto someone who doesn’t treat you right just because you’re afraid of being lonely. You are enough. And you’re stronger than you think you are. You. Deserve. This.

In other cases, I want to encourage you to stop being ashamed of your past, what you’ve been through or what you’re going through. There is nothing to be ashamed about, love. Nothing. If it’s divorce, abuse, a loss, a feeling of weakness, an illness, anything. It’s you and it’s your story. You may not have had any control over something that has happened to you but I do guarantee you’re not the only one it’s happened to. At the end of all the sorrow, YOU are the one who chooses if you’re going to be happy or not. You and only you. So are you? Do you want to be? Will you choose to be? Please, please choose to be happy. You are needed, you’re worthy, you’re loved and you are appreciated. And even on days when you’re drained but still doing the best you can, you’re being recognized. Maybe not by the one single person you want it to be from, but someone. By someone who needs you. Someone who looks up to you or watches you and grows secretly into a better person just because of YOU.

I saw this video recently of a woman running in a half marathon. She got toward the end of the race and just couldn’t go any further. Two men ended up holding onto her as she walked a bit until her legs finally started to give out. You could see the loss of hope in her eyes and sense her weakness getting the best of her. She just didn’t seem like she could go one step further. Another man suddenly ran up behind her, swooped her up, and carried her the rest of the way through the finish line.

I wanted to tell you this story because we have all been there. And if you haven’t yet, you will be. It’s a place in your life when you are at your lowest, inside the darkest hole and the most scary. A place completely out of your hands or something that you’ll feel like you can’t handle anymore. A place of losing hope, losing the positive drive to look ahead or keep going, and the times where you’ll lose faith and just want to completely give up. It may be a hard lesson to be learned, but maybe it will be something for you to hold onto for the future or simply to remind us what things there are in our life to be thankful for. You’ll become stronger than you ever were before, or even knew you could be, and you may even start thinking from a different perspective or completely change your way of thinking because of it. I know you may not want to think about it or hear it, or even believe that things will be happy again, but it’s true. There will be people around you who support you, to offer their help or even a hug. Allow it. Take the help and please keep those people. It is okay to fall, and to fall hard. But you need to get. back. up. Take some time to breathe, reflect, cry, wonder. And then do whatever it takes to start standing again. You have to. You HAVE to.

 Most importantly, if you see someone else fall, pick them up. You can’t just leave them there. DO NOT leave them there. Please, please pick them up. Help carry them through their finish line. Back into their light of a fresh start, a new beginning of whatever it is in their journey, a positive direction. They need to finish the race they are in before they can move on and be strong and choose ‘happy’ again. Honestly, they truly just may need YOU. And you don’t need a reason to help people.

This world, as we know it, is unbelievably cruel. Life is just so hard, and you know what? We need to be there for each other. We need to fight hard for ourselves and everyone else because we don’t know their journey. We need to stop judging by the cover so fast and we need to just be there for one another, for whatever it is that one may need us for. If someone comes into your life, it’s for a reason. It may be a long term friendship or one ‘just for the season’ – in other words, there is a reason. You are meant to cross paths with someone because one of you needs to find a little light in the darkness somehow and the other one is holding the lantern. You may not realize it right away, or even think about that. But believe me, there IS a reason.

“A circle of women may be the most powerful force known to humanity. If you have one, embrace it. If you need one, seek it. If you find one, for the love of all that is good and holy, dive in. Hold on. Love it up. Get naked. Let them see you. Let them hold you. Let your reluctant tears fall. Let yourself rise fierce and love gentle. YOU WILL BE CHANGED. The very fabric of your being will be altered by this, if you allow it. Please, please allow it.”

When we work together, we are powerful. We can do so much to help one another and each one of us can give something that someone else can’t. We need to reach out and help each other, lift each other up and inspire one another. I encourage you to free yourself, speak your story, your hurt, your struggles. BE FREE. Feel weightless and fly like you were meant to. Your story may just help save someone’s life or you may become just the right amount of light they need to make it through a specific chapter of their own journey.

If it is you who needs the help, needs the hug, it’s time for you to reach out your hand. Allow someone to help guide you through your finish line and into the light of your future. Get rid of all the negativity and watch your life fall back into place. Make it as big as you want it to be, make it great. Because really, you were meant to be SO great.

xx

Grain Bin Planter Project

We are slowly making our farmhouse into the way we want it one project at a time. And once we finish a few more, you will see a lot more pictures of what we’ve been up to! But for now, I just wanted to share one of my favorite projects that I just finished, to help brighten the main living room and bring a little extra ‘happy’ in the space.

Eventually, our giant living room will be painted, but I’m tired of waiting on it so I decided to just love it as it is until we can get that done. I need a small army of people and an entire weekend with no disruptions for that one. It’s the biggest room in the house by far. After stripping five layers of wallpaper and ripping up green carpet down to the gorgeous hardwood underneath once we moved in, we threw a color on the wall that we thought we would like, but after a bit, it’s not so much the look I wanted. Anyways, I’m a little over ‘painting’ this room right now haha. Someday…

So, here you go. If you like pretty greens or potted plants in your home, you may just fall in love with this idea. This also isn’t the only area like this in our home but this is one of the bigger focal points in our main room for you to get a great idea on how it looks. It was a blank cornered wall area that holds an old thermostat that no longer works and the remote to our fan. I couldn’t really put a sitting area here since it’s part of a main walking area and I was indecisive on what I wanted to put on the wall here. My main goal was to take away from the eye sore white random remote. So now as the plants grow, you won’t really notice it.

Vintage Grain Bin Planter Gallery Wall
supplies:

  • 15 old grain bins ( I had 6 of these and amazingly found more on ebay of the same kind to order more for the look I wanted )
  • potting soil
  • plants of your choice
  • screws + a drill or command strips


First, lay them all out on the floor in the way you want them hung on the wall to help you visualize it being the way you want it to look. Then, start hanging! We have *extremely* crumbly old walls in this old house, so the heavy duty command strips worked just fine for us during this project any many others. There isn’t really any extra weight being added other than the original weight of the bins to be able to hang.

Next, you’re going to pick which plants you want to put in them. I chose ones with low light as this part of the living room is across the room from where the main windows are.

Arrange where you want the plants to go before you start adding soil. This way, you can move them around if you need to make it look the way you want without taking the bins off the wall or making a mess moving the plants around. If you’re lucky, you may have a darling little helper for assistance like I did. Happy planting 🙂

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Present Over Perfect

I woke up on Tuesday morning feeling a little flustered. I had a few important calls to make before the fun could begin for the afternoon I had planned for Owen and I. I needed a day off. And by day off, I mean that I needed to completely unplug. Apparently on most of my days off, I’ll find myself feeling ‘bored’ at some point and sit back down at my desk. There were a couple small moments when I felt reminded that morning, almost like a tap on the shoulder to help me snap out of it. I needed to keep reminding myself to relax and stop worrying constantly about what’s supposed to or going to happen in the future, but to just concentrate and enjoy more of the NOW. More of today and right in this moment. I have a small problem with over thinking sometimes, and I get overwhelmed quickly from it. I know I can’t be the only one, right? I always want to do more, be more and give more than I actually can in the 24 hours we are given in one day and that is just so frustrating to me. I had picked up this book the day before and right when I happened to be in deep thought about something, my eyes scanned this sitting on the table. I took it as a sign that morning.

As I’ve seen, many of you went and saw Paw Patrol LIVE with your littles, wasn’t it fun? Like, seriously. I loved it. But that’s just coming from me, and that’s literally what my mama life revolves around here in this house, haha. I was that mom singing every song and dancing a little more than my child. Because let’s face it, when you hear it on repeat all day, every day…You are nothing less than a #1 fan. The both of us needed this day after a long two weeks before of busy schedules and the plague hitting hard.

This however, wasn’t just ‘a show’ for us. This was a dream come true for my boy. If I imagined what his bucket list (at his age right now) would include, seeing The Paw Patrol pups in person would be the top of his list. It was so magical watching it through his eyes. I’m not going to lie, I cried a little just sitting there watching him. (Now is the time to roll your eyes at the sappy mom)

He’s a super fan of  a lot of characters, but Paw Patrol has never left his side. He has 5 of each pup, (just in case we lose one or two) and he carries them everywhere with him. He lines them up on the counter during meals, in the bathtub, on the coffee table while he watches the show, and on the nightstand while sleeping with a couple. I heard from a friend they were coming, and the show that showed up was out of town and around his birthday, so I planned to take him and make a short trip out of it. Once I heard they were here, I jumped on it. It was closer and sooner!

He just couldn’t get enough. And neither could I.












I also surprised him and got the VIP pass so he could meet and greet the pups after the show. This again, was questionable with his sensory, but I knew I had to at least try and follow through with making this dream the best it could be, whether he would enjoy that part of it or not.

We didn’t take pictures with pups, as they really did take a bit of time to come out and once they did, he just didn’t want to be close to them. During that time, all the lights and kids and activities and colors were just too much for him. He was feeling overstimulated and overwhelmed and honestly, it was a bit much for me too in that little room. He just kept asking “Go home now and cuddle with you?”



After 20 minutes of watching other kids meet and talk to Ryder, Owen would be proud to tell you that he got to give him a high five! What a day to remember. I live for him and for all of these moments. And seriously, parenthood is just so incredibly rewarding. My heart is just so full.

Plan a day, my friend and unplug. COMPLETELY.

“Stop. Rest. Play. Create. Connect. Cultivate silence. And in that silence, you’ll discover the voice of love you’ve been aching to hear.”

You won’t regret it and I promise that life and work will still be waiting for you when you come back. We all need it. And we can’t be our best or do our best without days like this in between, no matter HOW good you are or how hard you work.

xx

 

Don’t Sweat the Small Things and Appreciate What You Have

Well, yesterday was a day to remember. One that I will never forget. It was a tad stressful, quite unplanned, unorganized and FULL of bliss.

Somewhere in between a couple appointments in the morning, errands in the afternoon, the weather forecast changing, my sister and Nana visiting, realizing that it was Randy’s day off, my only possible day to plan family pictures around my busy season if we want any at all, and Dakota (the oldest brother) coming to spend the night, I thought that it would be a great time to get an updated family picture. I picked up two shirts at Old Navy for the oldest boys which matched off the top of my head what we already had in our closets. We rushed back home from picking the kids up in town from school. The rain was coming and had already started spitting on us as we pulled into the driveway. The kids ran inside with Aunt Haley and Nana and Randy and I drove off again to Owen’s parent teacher conference at school. I nervously kept looking out the window at the weather and kept praying for it to hold of. Just for a few more minutes.

We got home, got the kids dressed and went out to the backyard. Another year that I didn’t even get a ‘picture perfect location’ as I’ve always dreamed of having like I get to give to my clients, because again, I seem to always procrastinate on my own family pictures. Every single year. We stood in a spot where we had a colorful tree and ready to go. My camera was DEAD. Of COURSE my battery would be dead for our own family photos. Why wouldn’t it be? My heart was sad and sank to my stomach and I looked at Randy. Dakota isn’t able to visit us hardly as often as we’d love for him to and he was here with us tonight. We needed these moments all together. Tonight. We haven’t had this in so long…

I looked at my sister, shrugged my shoulders and smiled.

“Get out your phone!”

I didn’t even care. We were all ready and we don’t know when we will have this again anytime soon. With all of us here and with the nice weather especially. She put down the camera, smiled at me and nodded. Nana yelled, “Okay, here we go!” And helped to keep the spirits high, haha.

I had a conversation with someone yesterday who in the conversation had said “…we are not going to sweat the small things.” I didn’t know it at the time but I took that home with me. And right at this moment, it hit me. We are all together, we are all healthy and we have a great life. We may not be in a colorful park full of changing fall trees and my camera may not even be working. But we can make due with what we do have and still enjoy this time together. I’m writing this post to remind you, if you need to hear it.

Do not sweat the small things and appreciate what you have right in front of you. You don’t take a photograph, you make it. And the best kind of camera is the one you have with you.

So here are a few of my favorites. I’m so blessed for this entire session of cell phone images and the whole 20 minutes we spent running around our own backyard.

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Dirty Hair Don’t Care

Paisley is seven. She’s so darn hilarious and the kind of girlfriend that everyone needs in their life, I just love her to death. She has those big girl conversations mixed with a little bit of that seven year old’s truthful kind of innocence that my heart just can’t get enough of.

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She was in the bathroom with me this weekend where she always comes to watch and chat with me for some extra girl time. I finished my makeup and opened the cabinet to grab out my go-to dry shampoo.

“Is that your hairspray, Shelbs?”

“Nope, it’s my dry shampoo. One day you will love this.” View Post

The First Day to the Rest of Your Life

All aboooard the Hot Mess Express!

Thursday 8.18.16

Dear Owen,
So many tears have fallen and so many smiles have shined through in honor of celebrating this day for you. It’s your first day of Kindergarten, my boy. My eyes are red and puffy and my feelings are overpowering my exhaustion for right now. I didn’t get much sleep last night and have been up since 4am this morning. I didn’t want to go to sleep or get out of bed because I knew that today was the day. And I wanted to hold that moment in just a little bit longer if I could. It’s the day that you are officially my ‘big boy.’ Well, to prove to everyone else you are. You’re not a baby anymore, as much as I still want to explain to you though, how you always (forever and ever) will be… View Post

The Countdown to Kindergarten

The first week is sluggishly passing by. Just being honest, it’s going reallyyyy slow, a little too slow for my liking. And while that is fine with me, it’s still a bit torturous, but it’s almost done. And yes, it’s taken me this long to actually just sit at my desk and write this without needing to stop and feel sad. I still cry at some point every day, and although I know it will go away at some point, just label me as ‘that mom.’ I don’t care. I’ve written in my journal every day, some multiple times a day, so I can remember everything that I’ve felt and everything that has happened. So after we celebrated us both getting through that first day together, I think celebrating getting through the first week will feel more like a victory.

Kindergarten roundup : Tuesday 8.16.16.
Yes, that “K” word. It’s here. It’s time. My boy starts Kindergarten in TWO days. Uggggh.
How am I feeling today you ask? Every emotion in the flippin’ book. I’m sad, anxious, excited for him but I feel like a piece of my heart is leaving me. I’m hopeful. I’m extremely thankful that we chose to keep him back one more year before starting. Everyone’s opinions made either a positive or negative impact but it’s true when they say ‘mom knows best.’ No one knows your child like you do. And seeing now how much he has succeeded, grown and accomplished in that year before sending him off has made it that much more easier to feel confident for him going this year. He’s ready, I’m ready… My heart just isn’t ready. But when will it ever be? View Post